I’ve been spending time, trying to stay afloat
Refusing to drown in the murky waters you have left me in.
You filled the water to my chin,
watched me fight for my breath.
You let the paranoia of my own defeat set in,
pushed me to suffocate, rather than help me swim.
I continued to tread water, on and on
Too afraid to give up and too exhausted to move forward.
Without feeling, you watched
As I exerted all my energy into rising waters
You allowed me to drain myself completely of life,
determined to find solid ground.
Frantically, my arms flailed.
I never give up a fight.
I knew you got us here,
I knew you were the reason I was drowning.
Yet in one last desperate attempt to restore us to sanity,
in one last fleeting moment,
I gave you a final chance to redeem yourself –
To pull me up from the depths.
Ignoring my instincts,
I reached for you.
You took my hand, as my legs began to give out
and I felt hope once again.
Then you let the water rise, while looking in my eyes.
You watched me inhale,
before I sank slowly
Surrounded by the weight of your betrayal.
Only then, as the water filled my lungs, did I finally feel peace.
Only then, did I let go.